Monday, September 24, 2012

The Depths of My Heart

There's this Facebook application called "Message From God", where everyday, one is given a quotation which is assumed to come from God. Believe me, the illusion is really helpful. So you see, I've been using this app for years, though not in the recent past. But more or less a couple of years ago, I had this particular message from this app that I just can't seem to part with. 

You can find a balance now between your easygoing style and a more direct approach to emotional disclosure. It's important for you to know that others can see past your clever wit and into your soul today, so resist telling the next joke or funny story to lighten the conversation. Sink into the depths of your heart and just feel what's going on for a change.

I just can't fathom how true these words are. The words easygoing style, clever wit, and the fact the I do really tell  jokes or funny stories to lighten to the conversation. It hit. Bull's eye.

This is years ago, but somehow, right now, I am in dire need of that balance, emotional disclosure and that feeling to really know what's going on for a change. . .

Sunday, September 23, 2012

Ever After

Storybook endings, fairy tales coming true
Deep down inside we want to believe they still do
And a secret is taught, it's our favorite part of the story
Let's just admit we all want to make it too 
                           -Carrie Underwood (Ever, Ever After)

Ok. I admit. I want a happy ever after, too. The kind that sweeps me off my feet, makes me sigh in contentment, makes me smile to every soul I meet, thrills me, and makes me happy. Which is, to simplify it, the kind that's hard to find.

I pretend, sometimes, in my mind, like a play, you know? An act on stage, with me directing it and starring it with the blank face of my significant other. It's cool because I get to be the princess of the story and I can change the script. I just can't wait to see the real thing :)

Earlier tonight, I helped my best friend start her essay which is to bring to the reader's attention a fairy tale happy ending. So, uhm, I don't know. I just wrote about it. (I mean typed.) 

Anyway, I feel like I'm on a roll tonight 'cause I had two posts which is quite a change from my long absence for almost two months. Nevertheless, I just wrote about happy endings because I have the knowledge how to get just that. Which can be found from this song . :))

So, learn the trick everybody... I hope everyone gets their happy endings. :D

The Things You Do For Friends

Lately, I've been hearing a particular phrase from my friend whenever one of us (from our tight-knit group) had done even the slightest favor for another. . .
"the things you do for friends...." (*ahem, in a thoughtful voice)
Perhaps the comment was made to endear, but my usually musing self had been musing again about these terms. . . the things I do for my friends. . . What are they exactly?

But as I began making the list (mentally), I thought, "What's the point? The deed's been done." And besides, won't listing things that you do for one person start bringing you thoughts on how these friends of yours should reciprocate the efforts you've done, the measures you've seen, the time you've spent, the risks you've taken? It might be a bit harsh (to my friends) but I soon realized that perhaps that's why oftentimes there's this sort of virtual distance that I'm making between several of my friends and I. A distance, that I make myself. It is, perhaps, I am waiting for them to reciprocate, which, in the logic of ethics and the vows of friendship, says it should not be done...

So, never expect. Just give.

Honestly, I don't even think I'm making any sense right now. ciao!

Friday, September 21, 2012

What I'd Like to Know

"Ah, now, don't cry over lost years and forgetfulness. The tales tell what they can. The rest is for us to learn. The question is, are we smart enough to figure for ourselves? Now, that's what I'd like to know."

-Shannon Hale, The Goose Girl